True North. Returning to Me.

I spent the last several months equal parts angry and empty. It took nearly four months to burn through the rage that would flare each time some new injustice was uncovered. It took another two to accept the nothingness that all that fury earned me. Somewhere in there, I have started to build peace. Peace with the realization that my tribe is small and the people I trust are few, but fiercely loved and loyal. Peace with the realization that one day he turned his switch to someone new and my children and I ceased to exist in his world. Peace because I am learning to let go. Peace because I trust my children to know who I am and know their value. Peace that the balance of everyone's needs is no longer mine to maintain. And perhaps some satisfaction in knowing the balance doesn't exist in my absence. And so, to release that which is no longer mine to carry (the harsh and the anger) and to call back that which fills me, tonight I honored myself by the light of the moon and the heat...